Friday, February 20, 2009

Beauty At Peace

Photo By Ron Sim: Off The Coast of Nias Island, Indonesia
Current Location: Jakarta, Indonesia 6°12′45.61″S - 106°52′23.74″E

I have to admit: having seen so much of the world has made me less intrigued by the suffering that I so desperately try to capture. Being in a third world country is beginning to feel natural. The people I meet, the images I capture and the plight I witness are all starting to look the same--a constant recycling of events from one country to another—and I think, because of that, I’m no longer emotionally touched as I once was. Lately, I’ve been debating whether my desensitization of the world I see is normal, whether that feeling I feel is right or wrong. It’s a battle that rages in my heart, erodes my soul and wakes me in the midst of a midnight dream.

Sometimes, when I’m awake, I lay there in bed, playing back in my mind the images I’ve captured. A close up of a hand in prayer, the smile of an elder, or the smirk of a lonely child peeking out the window all play back in slow motion replays—and sometimes I can even hear them, recall their words and remember the ambiance of the moment. And most times, I just lay there and smile.

I smile. I laugh to myself and I feel joy knowing that some how, I’ve managed to capture more than what is already evident. In the developing world, it’s easy to see suffering, to see poverty and despair—it can rip through your heart within seconds, tear away at the very fabric of your soul. The hardest part is to look beyond that--to see love and life and happiness and laughter.

But just before I close my eyes again, the image of their suffering hasn’t even flickered in my mind. But to be honest, I hope it never does. Desensitized, I know. I like being at peace.

There’s so much beauty here that it out weighs everything else.

8 comments:

Desert Rat said...

It's understandable, and it's best when beauty out weighs, because you can find both poverty and beauty every where and in the same place but not everyone is lucky enough to see the beauty. Thank you for sharing, love the photo.

The Demigoddess said...

I live in a third world country and I've become desensitized. It's my defense mechanism. If I don't feel so bad about the less fortunate people, I won't have to feel guilty that there is nothing I can do to help them. It's not noble, I know.

Javier said...

I understand your doubt, and I share your feeling... Argentina is a third world country, but Buenos Aires is a mixture of all the good and bad things in the world, and one gets used to seeing little fellows sleeping under cardboard boxes on the street while a BMW rolls by with a businessman talking on the cellphone... you get used to it... we all get used to everything, we couldn't live otherwise, we'd die of desperation...

see you, Ron!

SearchingSoul said...

Feeling desensitized is the best defense mechanism our body needs to bear the pain or go through life without being defeated by it.

You are right, there is beauty even in the most depressed part of the world. It outweighs the ugliness we see. That's nature's way of desensitizing us.

Cheryl said...

Who doesn't love feeling at peace?
I hope you're having a good time, Ron!

(I'd leave you a longer comment, but I talked to you 2 days ago, and nothing has changed except now I've got a flu and food poisoning. It's pretty awesome).

Lion-ess said...

amazing... just to see what u see.. would love to share that one day. Your life and experiences are blessings!!

Young Traveler said...

You are so deep. And in honor your deepness, I have given you an award. Check out my blog for details. Enjoy your travels.

ed said...

情趣商品,情趣用品,情趣用品,情趣,情趣,情趣用品,情趣商品,情趣用品,情趣,情趣,情趣用品,情趣商品,情趣用品,情趣,情趣,情趣用品,,情趣,情趣用品,情趣用品,情趣用品,情趣用品.情趣,情趣,情趣,情趣,視訊聊天室,情趣,情趣用品,情趣,情趣用品,情趣用品,情趣麻將,台灣彩卷,六合彩開獎號碼,運動彩卷,六合彩,遊戲,線上遊戲,cs online,搓麻將,矽谷麻將,明星三缺一, 橘子町,麻將大悶鍋,台客麻將,公博,game,,中華職棒,麗的線上小遊戲,國士無雙麻將,麻將館,賭博遊戲,威力彩,威力彩開獎號碼,龍龍運動網,史萊姆,史萊姆好玩遊戲,史萊姆第一個家,史萊姆好玩遊戲區,樂透彩開獎號碼,遊戲天堂,天堂,好玩遊戲,遊戲基地,無料遊戲王,好玩遊戲區,麻將遊戲,好玩遊戲區,小遊戲,電玩快打情趣用品,情趣,A片,AIO,AV,AV女優,A漫,免費A片,情色,情色貼圖,色情小說,情色文學,色情,寄情竹園小遊戲,色情遊戲,AIO交友愛情館,色情影片,情趣內衣,情趣睡衣,性感睡衣,情趣商品,微風成人,嘟嘟成人網,成人,18成人,成人影城,成人圖片,成人貼圖,成人圖片區,UT聊天室,聊天室,豆豆聊天室 ,哈啦聊天室,尋夢園聊天室,聊天室尋夢園,080苗栗人聊天室,080聊天室,視訊交友網,視訊借錢,黃金,黃金回收,黃金價格,黃金買賣,當舖A片,A片,成人網站,成人影片,色情,情色網,情色,AV,AV女優,成人影城,成人,色情A片,日本AV,免費成人影片,成人影片,SEX,免費A片,A片下載,免費A片下載,做愛,情色A片,色情影片,H漫,A漫,18成人a片,色情影片,情色電影,a片,色情,情色網,情色,av,av女優,成人影城,成人,色情a片,日本av,免費成人影片,成人影片,情色a片,sex,免費a片,a片下載,免費a片下載,成人網站,做愛,自拍